Coming Home----A reality Connection

This is finally it. My own blog. Man, i had to put this off for a long time, the fact that the unity of our communities are really fucked.
I got to get home to my place of Spiritual enlightenment, my home and my Spiritual place of humility. It is Waweyeagamaug, or Round Lake, Wisconsin.
To return home is always overwhelming. To see the disarray of ill functioning people, including my close family, is really in all, a by product of reservations and lifestyles-to each is to it's own-kinda attitude.
Upon returning home, i always notice new things, people and attitudes. This time what i had noticed was more evident of what our old people, the old people that do not physically exist anymore, except by people's thoughts-and what was evident was the lack of community, unity, truth and sense of pride and fullfillment.
I am the type of person that sits and observes, beyond the normal procedures-whatever that means. So, as i was sitting and meditating, taking a break away from my ceremonial procedures ,a story about an elderly gentleman from the Lac Courte Oreilles Reservation came into my mind.
The thought that came into my mind was that this old man, just like the elders of his day-were tricky, tricky in the fact that they could know how somebody thought-percieved life-what was important to these people, just by listening to them. They would not even have to see them, just hear them.
So, i was closing my eyes and listening. Imaging what those old people would hear 80 or 90 years ago. But, at first, everything was a conglomerate of muffled sounds, hard to hear just one voice.
"People think i am sleeping" i could hear this old man say to me. " What they don't know is that i am listening-listening to things, foolish ideas-fake people."
So, as i sat and listened, i heard the foolish thoughts , ideas and fake Anishinabe people. I guess you really have to be a strong spirited person to listen to all the garbage and lifeless things people take for being fun and motivating.
So, after hours of listening and coming up with an opinion of people, these Old Men would give their FACTS on ceremonial procedures, people and life. All of this and than some, from the old people's perspective. This was their commitment and knowledge to the order of the universe. Now-THERE IS NO TRUE ORDER-THE INDIVIDUALS CALLING ORDER TO CERTAIN FACETS OF LIFE AND SPIRITUAL WISDOM ARE CONTROL FREAKS.
So, it's like this: Who are we in the world? Who are we in the Universe? And who are we on our own Anishinabe world and communities?
Most of our past Spiritual people answered all of these questions by living-lilving the truths of life and nothing else. Trial and error were essential to thier survival.
Now, in todays time thier is no time for trial and error, because everyone is programmed to see all of your errors and give you thier opinion because they have no time to reflect what they see about you.
Ogabaak.